This is what happens when I get bored.
February 2011 best post.
Musings on the gap.
Everyone knows which gap I’m talking about. The one between your thighs. 1/2 inch, two inches, three inches - the bigger the better, but ultimately most girls trying to lose weight would kill for the gap no matter how big or small it may be. But what I want to know is, why?
What’s so special about this little space? Who decided that it’s the end all be all sign of “skinny”? To be honest, I didn’t even know that it was until I found the vast (and sometimes terrifying) world of weight loss tumblrs. I fought exercise bulimia last year and dropped to my lowest weight ever, hitting rock bottom at a BMI of 15.5. Did I have a thigh gap? I have no idea, because I didn’t think that was something that mattered. I didn’t have a blog at the time, so my disorder was mine - no one knew about it, I didn’t share it with anyone, I didn’t tell anyone my goals.
When I made this tumblr though, I started thinking that maybe there was something to this gap craze. Maybe my thighs really were fat if they touched at the top. So I worked on making a gap happen, and I ended up with a pretty nice one. But for the past 4 weeks I’ve been legitimately trying to strengthen my legs - not just tone, but strengthen. And since then, my gap has been getting smaller. And I’ll be honest with you all, at first that bothered me. I didn’t want huge thighs. But then I realized how freaking awesome my thighs look right now, and I decided that I’m not going to let a made up ideal affect me.
Because that’s what it is. A made up ideal, perpetuated by this community. I love tumblr, and I love each and every one of you that follow me and that I follow, but this is stupid. And we can stop it. We can stop perpetuating these made up ideals. Why do we have to see a thigh gap, collarbones, hipbones, and ribs before we can see beauty? Why can’t we just skip all that arbitrary crap and really see ourselves and each other for what we really are, which is beautiful at every weight?
I’m not holding myself to other peoples’ standards anymore. I’m beautiful, and nothing is going to change that. Not the bones I can or cannot see, and especially not a space between my thighs.
January 2011 favourite post.
We like to pretend we’re cute.
December 2010 favourite post.
Today, my best friend wrote “You are enough.” on my facebook wall.
And I think that’s something that we all need to remember. We are enough, no matter what, and we should never think that we’re not good enough or not thin enough or not toned enough or not pretty enough. We can improve, sure. But we’re already enough.
November 2010 favourite post.
This is me. I just did an hour long hoop workout, and I figured I’d take a few self timer pictures to serve as a little motivation. I’m pleased with my progress.
October 2010 favourite post. I still wasn’t in a healthy place mentally at that time, but this was when I first started hooping.
