I love being home.
I love accidentally sleeping on a far too small couch in my clothes with Jordan. I love making raspberry pies for my dad. I love making hoops. I love that Jordan hasn’t left my side for the past 26 hours. I love watching New Girl. I love eating eggs and veggies. I just love it all. Hardly more than a month left before I’m back for three months.
I didn't get my storm.
I just got a really really hard practice. But now I’m homeward bound!
Eating a banana, praying for a thunderstorm
I just want to go home, okay?
17 minutes until my bio exam.
Ready to rock it!
While society likes to preach “Love yourself!”, that’s not actually their agenda. After all, if you loved yourself, you wouldn’t need to buy their makeup that promises to make you look perfect, their bras that bump you up two cup sizes, their miracle supplements that guarantee a 20 lb weight loss in two weeks. When the media says “Love yourself!” they mean...
People don't realize that there's a difference...
On Monday our English professor gave us a 100 word vocabulary list from the book we’re reading, and my classmates were all like,”We have to memorize this?!” and Mrs. Doherty said “No, you have to learn them.” We just took a 25 question quiz where you had to fill in the blank with the proper vocab word and I finished in less than 10 minutes, because I had simply...
I am just in such a good mood.
Ashley was in my room until after one last night because Kayla and I were giving her guy advice. Then I braided Kayla’s hair this morning. Then a guy whose name I don’t even know told me I looked nice. Then my algebra professor wrote “Love you!” on my test. Then we got out of algebra 30 minutes early. And now I’m just listening to Fleetwood Mac.
Set a fire down in my soul
That I can’t contain, that I can’t control.
It's official -
I go to the greatest school in the entire world. We stand in the cold and sing for two and a half hours. We greet one another with a holy kiss. We rebuke each other out of love when someone misses the mark. We all know each other, and we all love each other, even if you don’t necessarily hang out with certain people all the time. We’re not ashamed to admit we’re wrong. We cry in...
Random facts about Carly
I can rap all of Bitches Ain’t Shit. Not a useful skill at a Christian school.
Just for the record
Layers are terribleeee in my hair. It’s too fine, they just really really bad.
What's on my mind today: Failure.
Not in the sense that I think I am a failure, or that I think I’m failing at anything. But the concept of failure. Last night I was watching practice videos of me hooping, the ones that I took when I first made my 3/4” 125 psi hoop. The ones where I’m awkward. The ones where I drop the hoop, a lot. The ones where I can’t chest hoop or knee hoop yet. I remember taking...
One of those awesome moments.
I was having a weird night, and I was in a weird mood, and I felt like I had no one to talk to, so I was texting Audrey about it and doing my bio homework, and all of the sudden within like 2 minutes I got a text from a Jordan that said “You are a lovely looking gal.” which is not in his usual repertoire of compliments (in fact, he pretty much NEVER mentions my looks), then I got a...
No lab tomorrow, woop wooop!
Which means I actually get to eat lunch after speech class instead of running straight to lab and then being exhausted and grouchy by Acts-Rev.
[[MORE]] I am consciously afraid of feeling sexy. That’s why this is under a cut. I love the way I look, but I hate the connotations that I know this picture has. You know what doesn’t have those connotations? This: There’s nothing sexy about that. That girl can’t bear children. Males do not want to mate with that female. I don’t know why I feel this way, but...
I had an interesting lunch today.
[[MORE]] I ate with with my friends Natalie and Kasey, as I’ve been doing a lot lately. Nat and I are really close, and Nat and Kasey are really close, so Kasey and I are casual friends. Natalie is overweight, lost 50 pounds, gained a lot back when she got to college, and is now scheduled for gastric bypass surgery. Kasey is super skinny, and a pageant girl. So any way, we all ate lunch...
"I'll make a deal with you."
I never know what’s coming when Jordan says things like that. But this was followed by “I’ll come get you on Friday if you take me to see the Hunger Games (:” Why is he the cutest? I mean really, it’s ridiculous. On another note, what is this “hip dip” post that’s going around? Are “hip dips” unattractive? I didn’t know that. I...
Sometimes at practice, when I'm absolutely dying
I think to myself “I wish I was like the girls who let themselves go 75% so I wouldn’t hate this so much.” but then I remember that going 100% is why I’m the fastest player on the team, so I keep pushing.
"Usually when a girl says something sweet to her...
…From a friend’s Facebook status. And sorry, but that’s one of the most immature things I’ve ever heard. I mean really. When you say something “sweet” to someone, it should be because you care about them and want to make them happy, not because you’re so needy you have to lure a compliment out of them to build yourself up. I want my boyfriend to say sweet...
Not having a scale is so bizarre.
I felt particularly small this morning, but I can’t hop on the scale. So I had to make an objective decision on my body based on how it looks and feels and not based on numbers. Gasp. What a novel idea, to actually observe yourself.
Just wow. Someone noticed. One of my friends texted me tonight and said “You are not okay.” then she came to my room, and we talked for an hour and I told her the thing that’s been weighing on me, then we went for a walk, and about a mile from the school she sat me down and said we couldn’t leave until I sent a certain person a message. We sat for a while. Finally I sent...
Twitter is weird for me
Because my followers are like 70% from tumblr and 30% from school. So I’m never quite sure what to tweet because my classmates aren’t used to me having feelings like you guys are.
Running my butt off at practice.
Getting better with every step.
Ah, true friendship.
Open up to my best friend about my problems and he replies “I’m going to f***ing punch you. I hope you’re ready.” Seriously, I love this kid.
"When your life is falling apart, you need a lot...
My boyfriend is so unintentionally wise and relevant sometimes.
Sometimes autocorrect just fills me with glee.
I mean, the word goblins randomly ending up in your text message just has to make you smile.
Haha oh man.
So my friend Caleb basically never stops talking. He has something to say about everything, he’s a speech and debate national champion like a billion times or something. So he and I were have a bit of a debate this morning over text and after one of the things I said he just quit texting me back. A few minutes later his facebook status said “Sometimes the words of other people so...
I'm so confused by my feelings.
[[MORE]]There is no logical reason for me to feel like this. None at all. Yet I do, and I have for 3 and a half years.
I feel like
We spend all day hiding our feelings, our bodies, our scars, praying that no one will notice. Then every night as we lie in bed we’re struck with the sorrow of no one noticing.
I've gotten a lot of new followers in the past...
So here’s a little bit about me. My name is Carly. I’m 19 years old. I play soccer at a small Christian university. I’m a Christian. I used to run long distance but that’s kind of antagonistic to my current soccer goals to get stronger and be able to destroy anyone. I have my whole life to run competitively; I have right now to play soccer competitively. I’m a...
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